My name is Melissa, and I am an alcoholic. My sobriety date is July 24, 2019.
This blog is a personal blog that encompasses my thoughts regarding recovery using memes I found on the internet to bring inspiration to my writing. I hope what you find here, brings some sort of understanding to your life. Whether that be in recovery, or not.
This particular meme brings me back to when I was just starting out on my journey. I was so lost. I had checked myself into treatment for the first time, and had no idea what to expect. I completed the program and went back to my parents' house - even though the counselors there were stressing that I should go to a three-quarter house. I didn't, and after going to meetings that were not teaching me the solution, I ended up drinking again after about 5 months.
I ended up checking myself back into rehab about 5 months after that. I had an on/off relapse that lasted approximately the whole 5 months, and I finally recognized I couldn't get sober again alone. This time, though, I remembered the reasons that I had failed the first time.
I recognized that I didn't know anything, that I was going to have to change everything and that the only way that this was possible was to shut up and listen to the suggestions of the people that I was asking for help from. So, that is exactly what I did. I failed and I restarted more intelligently. I came in with an open mind. I was willing to do the work that was entailed in recovering from this illness, and I was ready to be honest - with everyone, including myself.
What sobriety has taught me is that failure is not the end. Failure is really just a beginning.
The beginning of learning something a new way. If you fail, get back up - brush yourself off- and try the heck again! The only one that is holding you back is yourself; so, think outside of that small box that you THINK you belong in. Your box is meant to be much bigger.
God has given me a new foundation for life. A new trust in Him, and in myself. Lay your troubles before God, and He will help you solve them.
As always, be safe and God bless! 🙏🙌
-Melissa Paige
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