Happy Thanksgiving!
My name is Melissa, and I am an alcoholic. My sobriety date is July 24, 2019.
The purpose of this blog is to show that recovery is possible, if one is willing to try. I have chosen the theme of this blog to be "memes". I will provide a meme and then I will provide a summary of how it applies to my life, my sobriety, my relationship with God, among so many other things. I aim to show people that while recovery can be scary, making your way through the fear is one of the best parts of the journey.
I chose this meme for today, because of the obvious, it is Thanksgiving and we should be listing all of the things that we are thankful for. Throughout my journey there has been hardships, there has been distrust, there has been heartache, death, anger, anxiety, fear - the list just continues. But, one thing has remained constant throughout all of it, and that is God.
In the beginning, finding Him was the hard part - because I was afraid that He wouldn't hear me, or that he wouldn't even want to hear me. I had made quite the impression that I didn't want to have anything to do with Him at any other point in my life.
It took me relapsing and figuring out that the God I was trying to seek wasn't going to be found by other people telling me how to believe, it was to come based on my willingness to believe. I heard it in the rooms somewhere and loved it immediately, someone stated, "God is a gentleman and will not go where He is not invited".
How true is that?!
When I finally opened up my heart to Him, and to what He could offer me, that was when He made His presence known, Legit, KNOWN. This was the moment that I surrendered and realized that every part of my life that I was trying to influence based on my own self-will was crumbling before my eyes.
Letting God in, was HANDS DOWN, the best decision I could have ever possibly made. Obviously quitting drinking was the most important decision, because that led me to become willing, but the rest was history once I let Jesus take the wheel.
The things that have changed in my life, that I am beyond grateful for are not only monetary assets, but also things that I didn't remember existed - like laughter, self-love, relationships that are not toxic, a sound mind, and just plain old peace. These are just a few of the things that I had reflected on today as I got to spend a wonderful evening with amazing people who are so happy to have back a person, they thought they had lost for good.
And,
God did that.
For anyone thinking they may have a problem with drinking, know that I have been where you are. You are strong, much stronger than you think - and with God on your team (you have to let him in), there are no limits to who you can become.
Have a wonderful Thanksgiving and God bless! 🙌🙏💓
